Wednesday, January 13, 2021

OOPS...I did it again

1/13/2021

 When I first started writing a blog I always titled it with a song or lyrics to a song...it became a sort of theme for the blog. Also because....who doesn't want a song stuck in their head all day?? 😱

This time, it's more of a "sliding into old habits' kinda thing. I went two days without posting a blog...not that the nine people who meander onto this page, noticed. As you may tell, I'm not all that popular. Never have been. I'm especially unpopular in my family....but we won't go there.

Anyway....How is your new year coming along? Mine? Meh. I keep telling myself I'm going to go back to writing, then spend the whole day doing something else that ends up vegging in front of the TV. I don't know why writing has become unenjoyable for me. I still have stories I want to write, and, for part of my day, think of scenes to write or dialogue to speak, but when it comes to opening up the file...I balk. Maybe the reason is because I'm unhappy. Unhappy with the world. Unhappy with life. Unhappy with me. 

I really have no reason to be unhappy. I have a wonderful husband, whom I love dearly (even when he gets on my nerves--haha). We've been together 30 years and have raised four wonderful children, one of whom has blessed us with an adorable granddaughter. My husband, aka sidekick, is still working, despite the pandemic. All of us, including my children, have stayed healthy. I have a roof over my head, food in the pantry....we're doing well. 

The issue is...Me. 

So, what am I supposed to do to "fix me"?  I tried meditation...lasted about a minute...I think I'm too ADD for that. I wanted to try yoga, but back, shoulder and knee problems make that difficult. I do try to go for walks, but always find an excuse not to. I'd try CBD, but it's not really legal here. 

Eventually I'll snap out of it  but for now,....I'm at a standstill.

What do you do to keep happy? What motivates you? 

Sunday, January 10, 2021

It's a New Week

1/10/2021

 Happy Sunday Everyone! 

Today is one of those stay in the PJ's and read a good book, kinda days. Although I may try to get some writing done (outside of this blog). Right now it's raining and the temperature is 39 degrees...way too cold for me!! I'm about to go put on some gloves!

Today is also a good day to make gumbo for dinner. I usually make it from scratch with chicken and sausage, but today I'm using Zatarain and adding shrimp. I'm using the box, which isn't bad, because making the roux smokes up the house and it's too cold to open doors and windows to 'clear the air'. 

What is your favorite cold weather meal? Leave me a comment and maybe the recipe....I'm always looking for new ideas. 

Thanks for reading!



Saturday, January 09, 2021

Let's Start Again

1/9/2021

 Hello! 

I'm Terri Molina, best-selling, multi-published author of Tex-Mex Romance and this is my Official page, since I don't have a website.

Welcome!

So, if you've been reading me lately, you'll note my outspoken anger over the past few days. It may have turned you off and had you saying to yourself "Fuck her, I will never buy her books" yada yada. If so....well, not much I can do about that. I won't apologize for my anger and I shouldn't have to.


ANYWAY....Yesterday is the past, today is the present and tomorrow is the future. Let's see what we can do to move forward.

So, today is Saturday....football day as my husband will have it. Three games he'll be vegging today and tomorrow. Although, if he wasn't watching football he'd be watching golf....just as equally boring. Actually, I used to watch football....when I was younger and before I got married (nearly 30 years ago). I still occasionally watch the Super Bowl...depending on who's playing and how exciting it's expected to be (but, yeah, mostly for the commercials). So, while he's killing brain cells doing that, I'm trying to decide what to do to pass the time. I should be writing (this blog doesn't count) but I can't get motivated to do so. I'm worried about my daughter in LA. She hasn't been working since March, almost a year, and is four months behind on her rent (which anyone in Cali will know is astronomical) and she's still unable to find work. What little she gets from unemployment covers her car insurance about 2% of her rent and food. We help her out as best we can (we pay her $325 car note) but we barely make any money. I set up a GoFundMe page, but I haven't posted it anywhere. Growing up poor and finding baskets of donated food on our doorstep was humiliating enough. Asking people for money is just as bad. But, that's my child and I'd do anything for my children.

Thank you for reading. I hope you come back....I think you can even subscribe to this page....I forget how it works. Anyway...have a terrific day!

Go Fund Me Page

Friday, January 08, 2021

Another Day...

1/8/2021

 


Well, yesterday was a shitshow. If you weren't paying attention, trump and his ilk stormed the capital in DC and tried to overthrow the election. Then, the cocksuckers tried to blame it on the Anti-Fascists' and the Black Lives Matter group, all the while posting pictures and videos of themselves vandalizing and shitting all over a government building and our constitution!! Those trumpers are so fucking stupid!!! I just can't with them! 

Shocked by my language? Too Bad. I. Am. Pissed. Off!!! And you should be too!!! Those fucking shitheads should be punished to the full extent of the law...and anyone else who supports them.  What they did was NOT patriotic it was domestic terrorism. Even his own staff is resigning because they're too chicken shit to stay and invoke the 25th amendment!!! 

I am so glad Biden and Harris will be taking over the lead for his country and I sure hope they press charges and lock that orange shitstain in prison!!

And to Facebook and Twitter who both banned me (FB for calling someone a cockroach)  FUCK YOU!!


Thursday, January 07, 2021

Support trump? Take a Walk....off a cliff

1/7/2021

It goes without saying that yesterday was a horrible day in our nation's history. I'm still angry about it but more so that the people I grew up with, that I considered brothers & sisters, are blaming everyone but trump and themselves for the insurrection and violence. They're claiming it was rigged by ANTIFA. That, because they wore gasmasks and carried guns, they were BLM protesters (uh....hey dumbass, they were White, and don't GAF about BLM). I am so deeply ashamed of those people and their ignorance. They aren't going to change and are going to continue their hate and divisiveness like their 'leader'. But it truly breaks my heart that I can no longer associate with them.

Yeah, sure, those 'holier-than-thou' are going to say..."you shouldn't let politics ruin your friendships or come between family...blah blah blah" But, I'm not going to turn a blind eye to their hatred. I'm not going to ignore that they agree with white supremacy (and they aren't even White!) I'm not going to pretend that they 'pick and choose' who deserves justice.

Yesterday's violence at the capital happened because trump ordered it, and had been planning it since the beginning of the year, whether you want to admit it or not. That man is Evil! He has always been Evil and he brought the evil, vile, cockroaches out of the crevices when he decided to run for office---as a republican because he knew how weak-minded and gullible they are and knew he could lead them into the sewer with him.

Come on! How can Anyone with even Half a brain believe the election was rigged??? They sure didn't think so when Hillary lost, even when she won the popular vote by millions. How can these half-brained dimwits believe those assholes storming the capital weren't trumpers? What will it take to 'turn on the light' for these people? What more has to happen to this country?? Really! I want to know.

Joe Biden and Kamala Harris WON this election FAIRLY!! And, by a landslide, as trump likes to falsely brag about himself. When trump stole the election in 2016 everyone said, "give him a chance, he's a businessman, he'll do good" while those of us with brains and morals said...."he doesn't know wtf he's doing and is going to be the worst president in history!" Guess who was right? The brains!

It's going to take a lot to bring unity back to the United States (which is a joke of a title now) and to start we need to make Every Single GOP accountable. trump needs to be held accountable!! ted cruz needs to resign! pence needs to get a backbone and enact the 25th Amendment!

The storm on the capital was not someone just wanting to "have their voice heard". It was sedition. It was an insurrection. And those who believe otherwise, should be held accountable as well!

And, to all those people, I say FUCK YOU!!


What you need to know
- There is no evidence so far that Antifa activists stormed the US Capitol, according to multiple fact-checkers - Information available in images of the insurrection suggests the participants have links to far-right movements, according to The New York Times - One of the men in the images is identified as a frequent MAGA world protester known as “Q Shaman,” and another is Matthew Heimbach, a well-known white nationalist, according to Buzzfeed News

Wednesday, January 06, 2021

Let's Start Anew

 Today, January 6, marks the Epiphany, known to Catholics as the day the three wise men reached Jerusalem and acknowledged the birth of Christ. Ironically, today is also the day congress will certify Joe Biden and Kamala Harris as President/Vice President.

Now, if you've been paying attention, that orange shitstain currently in the white house is still trying to overthrow the election he LOST in November. It really boggles the mind how so many people believe his bullshit. 

Okay....I'm not going to make this about 'him'. I'd rather not have the angina. I just hope and pray we get our country and morality back.

So, anyway, today being the Epiphany, it means it's time to take down the Christmas decorations. Which I have done. It's amazing how much space you can garner when you don't have a six foot tree in the way. 

Now that the decorations are stored and the holidays are officially over, it's time to start the new year. Meaning, working on those resolutions until you give up. Personally, I don't make resolutions any more than I make goals....because I don't like to me told what to do, even by me. haha

So, if you're reading, tell me what your resolutions are. Do you make any? How long before you break them?

Thanks for reading.

Have a joyous day!

Tuesday, January 05, 2021

Wake Me Up When the Pandemic Ends

1/5/2021 If you're a fan of 30 Seconds to Mars, that title will get a song stuck in your head. 

So, in case you haven't been paying attention....there's been a pandemic spreading throughout the world. Yes, some of you believe it's a hoax and some believe it's nothing more than an aggressive flu. Me? I believe the science. I wear my mask. I keep my distance. Of course I live in the country with nary a neighbor in sight, so the distance thing isn't a hardship. And my husband and daughter are germaphobes so things stay fairly sanitized in my house. 

Anyway, with the lockdown Cabin-fever is getting a whole new meaning. Were it not for the internet and technology, the world would be a lot more batshit crazy than it is. Personally, I'm not really doing anything different. I still binge watch TV. I still curl up with a good book. I still cook dinner, do laundry, clean my house. I still face-time/text with my children, who each live in a different time zone. We even do monthly family game nights, like we did when they were young, only now it's on Zoom and we play JackBoxTV.  Last month I went to my son's house for a few days to see my granddaughter and celebrate her fifth birthday. (yes, all precautions were taken ahead of time). They introduced me to a new game you play on your phone
called Among Us. It's a who-dun-it type game with everyone stuck on a spaceship and one of you is a killer. It's a fun game, but should not be played with a five year old since the point is to figure out who the killer is before you're killed. My adorable granddaughter constantly ran through the house saying who killed her or who she killed. I don't think she quite understood the game. haha

So, what are you doing to pass the time? 

Regardless what you believe about the virus, stay safe. Stay healthy.

Monday, January 04, 2021

Happy New Year!

1/4/2021

 Okay, I'm four days late, but it's the thought that counts, right?

It's been a while since I posted anything here...laziness, no motivation, nothing really to say....those are my excuses. With the new year and a new outlook on everything, I am going to pledge to blog more...daily, hopefully. I don't promise any of it will be interesting though. haha

One of the main reasons for making this blog more active is because I no longer have a website. The site that hosted my domain name made some changes and I ended up losing my website. Initially they said I could rebuild using WordPress. Nearly everyone said WordPress is easy, anyone can do it, you'll like it. Well, I'm hear to say BS! It is not user friendly, especially for those of us non-computer nerds. 



After spending the entirety of a Sunday trying to build a nice author site (or even a decent one) I gave up. I will no longer have an author site. And, really, what good did it do me? It was a pain in the arse to update...unlike Blogger, which I will now use as my official website. My books are there --> on the sidebar and you can click each one to read a preview or even order, should you so desire.

So....let me Officially Welcome you to my Blog/Website! 

I hope you enjoy my musings and feel free to drop me a note.

Have a fabulous rest of your day!

Sunday, September 13, 2020

Just Another Blog Post

 Hello Readers!!

Long time no post....although that's pretty typical for me. I've just never understood the whole blog thing and always feel like Doogie Howser when I write something. haha

Anyway...before I post any further I just wanted to pass along this article to anyone who is still supporting that person squatting in the White House. And then ask yourself....what kind of person are you??

Sunday, October 27, 2019

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

I don't know about you, but October is my favorite time of year. The weather is cooler, the leaves are turning (and falling) and some of our fondest memories from childhood flood back like a soothing cup of hot chocolate. Of course that isn't the only reason I love October. Need I state the obvious? It's because of HALLOWEEN!  Yes, I LOVE Halloween! It's probably my favorite holiday ever! And it's not because of the candy...although if you want to give me a bag of Almond Joys I won't complain. I love Halloween because it's the one time of the year that you can dress up and scare children and not get arrested (mostly). I admit I wasn't that big into Halloween until I had my own children but, as they got older stopped doing the trick-or-treating I decided to keep them excited about the day by really getting into the spirit of it all. On Halloween day we'd turn our yard or garage into a haunted house/cemetery. One year my son and his friends even dressed as zombies and roamed to graveyard in a live-action decoration.. Another reason I love October is because I love watching scary movies with my daughter. Not the blood and gore ones, but the scary ones that keep you on the edge of your seat. It's why I write paranormal romances.
What are your favorite things about October?

Tuesday, April 19, 2016

How Do You Define Success?


This is actually a repost from a blog I did last year at Romancing the Genres. I saw the link on my Facebook page under "Last year on the day" and I liked the post so much, I thought I'd replay it. (okay, I'll admit I'm a lazy blogger.)

The month I wrote this, RTG's theme was about Hope and well, since we are now in the best season of the year, Spring, I wrote a post about it. After all, Springtime is the season of hope as well as rebirth.  

Before starting my post I decided to look up the word hope and one definition stuck out to me: the likelihood of success.  Why? Because the word Success has been on my mind, a lot. Partly because this past August my high school class had its 35th class reunion. I don’t usually attend my reunions, they have them every five years for some reason and the last one I went to was the 25th. For weeks before the reunion, one of the committee chairs would post reminders about attending. One day she made a list of reasons why many people don’t go to their reunions, one being “because I’m not successful enough”. Which got me thinking….what exactly is success? Is it a six figure salary? Is it seeing your name in lights? Is it being financially independent. Having a family? 

As children we all have dreams of being successful, like someday becoming a famous actor or musician, a supreme court justice, or maybe even president. But are these dreams really for us or because we want to be able to go home one day and say “Look at me. I’m not the nobody you thought I was!”

I’ll admit, I always wanted to be one of those people who could go back home and prove I was a success. I thought, by the time I was thirty I would be someone important. Someone people would admire. Someone my family would be proud of. And it’s taken me thirty-five years to realize who cares what other people think? I don’t need the money or prestige or fancy material things to prove my worth. So what if I’m fifty pounds overweight and my writing career isn’t in the same vein as Nora Roberts, or my hair is turning grey (when I allow it). I have been married to my soulmate for nearly twenty-five years, I have four beautiful children, and a gorgeous granddaughter, a roof over my head, and lots of friends I enjoy hanging out with who enjoy hanging out with me.  (always a plus)  Life is good.   

Success is something to aspire to, but it doesn’t need to be the end-all of your worth.


Friday, May 22, 2015

Random Blog Post (or writing last minute when you're jet-lagged

Welcome everyone! I’m Terri Molina and I write Tex-Mex romantic suspense.....meaning my works take place in Texas and the characters are Mexican. (pretty self-explanatory, I know)

First, let me apologize to anyone who swings by to read this blog for not posting in months! In my defense the days crept up on me when my back was turned. I went out of town on May first to attend the wedding of my beautiful niece in San Antonio then again three days later I headed to my hometown of Port Arthur for my cousin's wedding then it was off to Dallas for the Romantic Times Convention. I just got home Tuesday and still feeling a bit jet-lagged---although I drove so that would be car-lagged---- so forgive me if this post is a bit random. :)

I had a terrific time in Texas, because it’s where I’m from so I got to see a lot of family. For the first wedding my daughter made the groom’s cake, which came out wonderfully. (of course she had a bit of help with the decorating, but the cake she made from scratch). 

Anyway, with summer just around the corner, I'm getting my "Summer Reads" together and after attending RT I have a whole new pile of books to add to the list. That’s one of the perks to attending a writing conference...the free books! And, finding new authors to read. So, my summer is set, provided I can find time to read.

I don’t know how many books I came home with, a majority of them were given out at the various workshops so I didn’t exactly choose them all-- which means I probably won’t want to read them all.  Actually, I plan to send most of them to my aunt. She loves to read and to be honest, there are a few books I’m not really interested in reading. Not that they aren’t worth reading, but I’m a bit picky. I don’t look at just the cover...although I’m not all that into the whole naked men/women on the covers. The first thing I look at with a new book, or any book, is the back cover blurb. It has to be really intriguing for me to want to spend my time in the story. I’m a pretty fast reader so if a book takes me more than three days to read, I won’t recommend it to anyone else.

So, what about you? Are you a cover first book chooser or back cover blurb chooser?

Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Ringing in the New


Happy New Year!

2015 is bringing in a lot of changes for our family…..giving new meaning to “out with the old, in with the new”. 

In October, my husband was informed he would be let go from his job here in Phoenix. As of December 12, he became unemployed…although his official date is January 5.

Needless to say,  the news came as a big shock to us and the reasons for his termination made us more than angry, but after the emotions faded my husband realized it was a blessing because he had tired of the job and was no longer happy with the company or the direction they seemed to be going.  Because there was no legitimate reason (other than their standard “it’s just business” BS)---okay, I’m still angry, haha--- he was given a generous severance.  He’s already started looking for work (and many of his co-workers have started helping him…that’s how loved he was by many of them). He’s been off since mid December, doing small chores around the house, relaxing and just plain driving me crazy! We are very confident he will find another job, we just aren’t sure where….here in Arizona or back home in Texas and I have to admit, Texas is high on the list.  

All in all, I am very glad to see 2014 end!! It’s been a very stressful year….so much so, I haven’t been able to get any real writing done…and believe me when I tell you, I don’t stress easily. I’m from Texas and pretty laidback. Shit happens, I deal….but when it’s people putting the stress on….well, I deal, but my health suffers and my writing. 

Anyway….I’m really hoping 2015 is a banner year for us, although life is what you make of it. I’m going to stay positive and hope everything works out….after all, I’ve always believed things happen for a reason, so there’s no sense worrying about it.

 

 

Saturday, December 20, 2014

Christmas Time is Here

Wow, less than a week til Christmas and I'm not even feeling it. I guess that happens when you get old and your kids have moved on although I still have two at home and the other two are close by....Christmas just isn't the same as when they were babies and their excitement of the day was contagious.


I've been trying to find ways to get into the holiday season by decorating the house and planning the days. My daughter Becca is driving in on Monday with her roommate and they'll be spending the whole week here. Today the sidekick and I are going to pick out our tree and on Monday all the kids will be here to decorate it. Our own tree trimming party! I still have a bit of Christmas shopping to do---which I'll probably do Tuesday-- and I haven't wrapped any gifts yet....that's always a last minute thing. On Christmas Eve morning we're going to make tamales because we have a small family party that night, we'll watch a Christmas movie then play some games and the kids always like to open a gift. Christmas day, we eat a big breakfast then have our big dinner. The girls and I may go to a movie that night as well.  All in all, it'll be a fun night.


Anyway....I hope you and your family are having a wonderful Christmas!!

Sunday, May 18, 2014

Free to be Me

I am determined to be cheerful and happy in whatever situation I may find myself. For I have learned that the greater part of our misery or unhappiness is determined not by our circumstance but by our disposition.

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I am determined to be cheerful and happy in whatever situation I may find myself. For I have learned that the greater part of our misery or unhappiness is determined not by our circumstance but by our disposition. <Martha Washington > 



Is it me, or does this year seem to be flying by?  Seems like just yesterday I was changing diapers, carting kids to little league or ballet and fighting bedtime. Now, the kids are grown and, for the most part, moved out and it's just me and my husband. Which is a good thing. Now we can do what we want, when we want, without having to worry about babysitters.


When my kids were younger I would hear stories about the "empty nest" syndrome...how couples would have to learn to be a couple again or get used to not having the kids around as buffers or excuses to do things together....and I waited for it to happen for us....but it hasn't.  Sounds kinda bad, doesn't it? I love my children to the Heavens and back, and I miss the days when they were young and home....but not to the extent of not knowing who I am without them. And, my husband and I have never had problems with being a couple. Over our 22 years of marriage, we'd do the occasional 'date night'....which happens more now than before. We enjoy each other's company but we also enjoy doing our own thing. He likes to golf, I like to be alone to read or write or maybe visit the local casino.  My husband's job requires him to travel a lot which has never been a problem for me and he was away a lot when the children were still in elementary school because of being in the service, which was still not an issue for me because I'm an extreme introvert...I LIKE to be alone with me. Plus, being raised by a single parent (my aunt) I had to step up often to be the adult and take care of the family (in a housewife sort of way) so I was used to it. The family and their needs always came first.


So, now that I don't have children to take care of (more or less) I can focus on me. Back in '99 I decided I wanted to pursue a writing career. I'd always loved making up stories and had an active imagination, so I started training myself on how to write a novel. In 2003 I sat down and wrote my first book, which I completed within two months. Now, because I was still 'green' and not as trained in the craft as I thought I was, it took a lot of time to fix the story in order to make it publishable. I did countless revisions, added scenes, pulled scenes and rewrote scenes. Eight years after I wrote The End on the last page, I sold the book, Forget Me Not, to Decadent Publishing!  In 2003, a couple of weeks after finishing Forget Me Not, I started a second book. It took me two months to write as well because the story had been in my head for a very long time. Again, the time between writing the end and publishing was quite long, but I'm thrilled to say Dark Obsession is now available online!


Back in the day when we lived off my husband's Coast Guard salary and money was so tight we had to pawn whatever we had of value just to buy food, I never stopped believing things would get better. Patience is a virtue I learned to hold on to. And faith is something I've never given up.


Thursday, April 17, 2014

Vacation Memories

        So we’re talking vacations this month. It’s a bit premature since most vacations happen in the summer. 
I never really took vacations until after I was married and had kids and my husband retired from the Coast Guard and found another job, because we just couldn’t afford to. Our first family vacation was 2002. A trip to Florida. My nieces Heather and Sierra joined us, along with Sierra’s brother Nik. We went to both Disneyworld and Universal studios and had a blast! The kids were all at the perfect age to enjoy the rides and shows.  As much fun as that was though, I think my most memorable vacation was the one I took in 1975, with my whole family. It was the first and only vacation I can remember us taking and the last because a few months later my mom passed away.  I can still remember when she came to tell us we were taking a trip. She just walked in the room while we were watching TV and said, “We’re going on a trip, so pack some clothes and get some sleep. We’re leaving very early in the morning.”  Yeah, it was a spur of the moment thing. I think my aunt and uncle talked her into it, they came with us.

So we all piled into our Suburban…seven kids aged nine to seventeen, a two year old toddler and three adults and took a road trip south along the Texas gulf coastline. I remember we made stops in Alice, Kingsville, Corpus Christie and Brownsville….visiting with family mostly. Then we took a trip across the border to Mexico to do some shopping.  I don’t remember which town it was, there are a few you can cross into that welcome tourists.  Along the river on the Mexico side, you’ll see children of all ages begging for money and scrambling like ants for the measly coins people toss down to them. Once you cross the river via the international bridge and you’re accosted by merchants trying to sell you everything from candies to clothing to wall hangings. Even children, some as young as five, will try to sell you packets of gum.  The streets are lined with stores and the sidewalks are crowded with carts filled with leather belts, handbags, jewelry,  everything you can think of. And, occasionally you’ll pass a store and your senses are filled with the spicy aroma of Mexican food.  I don’t remember if anyone bought anything, although I’m sure we did.  But, you have to be careful who you turn down because if it’s the wrong person, you could end up cursed. I saw a woman give my mother a dirty look when she told her no and a couple of months later mom got sick. (Superstitious much?)

I’ve made a few trips back to Mexico over the years and not much has changed.  The children are still begging for loose change, merchants are still trying to make deals, and you won’t find better Mexican food. Of course, I avoid eye-contact, for obvious reasons. Hah

A few years back, while I was working on my book Dark Obsession (available May 5th), my aunt, cousin and I took a trip back down the Rio Grande Valley (the gulf coastline) so I could get some visuals. Dark Obsession takes place in the valley….almost all of my stories do, actually.  I got some great stories from my aunt’s in-laws as well as some great scenery to use in the story.  

Anyway, speaking of Dark Obsession, the book is being re-released May 5th. I hope you’ll pick up a copy and help spread the word. =)

Here’s the blurb and a short excerpt for your reading pleasure. 

DARK OBSESSION

        A chance encounter seals the fate of a reclusive farmer and a mysterious woman who's on the run from a man who will stop at nothing to control her--including murder.
Ray Chavez  doesn’t believe in visions or omens or the mysticism of his Mexican/Indian heritage. When he’s awakened by the spirit of this great-grandmother with a message that something is coming, Ray passes it off as a bad dream. But he may just reconsider his position when he finds Lexie Solis stranded on the edge of town, in search of a new life. Ray feels an instant attraction, as well as a connection, to the skittish young woman, and he pursues a relationship with her. But what Lexie doesn’t tell Ray or his family, is that she is on the run from an abusive ex-boyfriend and he may be more powerful than even she wants to believe. When Lexie is assaulted by an unseen force, they learn that the man she is hiding from is a master of the dark arts and his obsession with Lexie goes beyond his need to control her; he wants to possess her soul as well. As their past lives parallel, Lexie’s only hope for salvation is in Ray’s hands. But can he accept his destiny in time to save the woman he loves? 

Excerpt:

Sylvia dropped onto the kitchen chair and scowled at her brother. She’d rushed straight from work after her grandmother called and told her about their new visitor. She couldn’t help but wonder if it were the same visitor her cards had been warning her about for the past week and even after she voiced this concern Ray still had the nerve to patronize her.

“She’s not some stray puppy you picked up from the side of the road, Ray,” she said. “I’m just saying you don’t know anything about her.”

Ray leaned against the counter, crossing his legs at the ankles, and sent her a crooked grin. “Damn. And I was really looking forward to teaching her a few tricks.”

“Stop thinking with your glands and think with your head, Big Brother,” Sylvia snapped.

“I’ve been thinking with my glands since I was fourteen. It’s a hard habit to break.”

Sylvia curled her lip at him and turned to her grandmother for support. She had sensed a mal puesta in the young woman and performed a limpia to heal her. It was a ritual they often worked for the families in town who came to see them about their curses. The inflicted would lie on a small cot and her grandmother would wave an egg over them, chanting a series of novenas.

She did this same cleansing on the young woman in Ray’s old bedroom. When she finished she took the egg and cracked it into a glass of salt water. The egg sizzled and cooked, curling its way to the surface like a snake trying to escape the flames of hell.

 Look for this and other works at my website: www.terrimolina.com

Monday, January 20, 2014

I knew....

Josephine Martinez Molina
January 20, 1935 - June 15, 1975 

It's so true when they say your life can change in an instant. I've always believed things happen for a reason, that there's a purpose for why or when. Events in your life, good or bad, build the person you become. You just don't realize it until later if they made you better or stronger.
My mom died on Father's Day, 1975, two days before my thirteenth birthday. I remember the day vividly; waking up at eight in the morning and seeing my oldest sister climbing into my aunt's car. My first thought, before I fell back asleep was, "she must be going to the hospital because mom died." Yeah, pretty morbid thought to have, but I just had that gut feeling. In fact, several months before, when my brothers and sisters and I gathered on the floor around my mom's easy chair and she told us she had to go into the hospital my first question to her was, "are you going to die?" She spent a lot of weeks in the hospital and in that time I mourned her loss. I just knew she wasn't going to come home. And, a couple of hours later, when my cousin came to the house and ushered us into our Suburban without caring if we'd had breakfast, I knew. When he dropped us at the entrance and said to go to the nurse's station. I knew. When we rode up into the elevator to the fourth floor, my younger brother and sister chattering and laughing, I knew. When the floor nurse told us to go to the room opposite the one our mother was in, I knew. And when I opened the door and found it full of my family, tears streaming down their cheeks, my brother standing still against the window, his expression blank...I knew.
Over the years, as I got older, I thought a lot about what it must have been like for her, raising seven children, alone, widowed at the age of 36. As a child, I didn't give her the respect she deserved--children rarely do when they're young. But, I was number 5 in the bunch (of 7), and I didn't feel like she cared about me as much as the others. I now know, with that many children, it's hard to give time to just one. Especially when all they do is fight...yeah, we fought often...not physically, verbally. I used to wonder if maybe she begged God to take her away.

When I started having children I used to think: don't let me be like her.  When, in fact, I want to be like her. She was strong and caring and loving and she didn't let anything break her.
I don't know what kind of relationship we would have had if she lived, but I like to believe we would have been close.

I think about her often, especially during the holidays when my children are gathered around me.  I wonder if she knows how much I love her and miss her. And I hope I've made her proud.

There's a song by Christina Aguilera called Hurt, that resonates with me and sums up a lot of what I would say if she were here today. The lyrics are below.

But, most of all, I would tell her, Thank you. 

Happy Birthday.



Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Ooh ooh
 I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes.
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again.
Sometimes I wanna call you but I know you won't be there
Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this, ooh, whoa
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
 There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back
Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, oh, oh, oh.
If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you since you've been away
Oh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you



Oh, and, in honor of mom's birthday,  from now (January 20) thru Wednesday (the 22nd) my novel House of Cards will be on sale for just .99 cents. 



Monday, November 11, 2013

Happy Veteran's Day!

Official seal of the United States Department of Veterans AffairsIn November 1919, President Wilson proclaimed November 11 as the first commemoration of Armistice Day with the following words: "To us in America, the reflections of Armistice Day will be filled with solemn pride in the heroism of those who died in the country’s service and with gratitude for the victory, both because of the thing from which it has freed us and because of the opportunity it has given America to show her sympathy with peace and justice in the councils of the nations…"
Did you know we've been celebrating this holiday for nearly 100 years? I don't think a lot of people do (know it). I think it's become one of those holidays you wait for because it means "big sales" at the department stores or a day off from work (especially if you're a government employee). Like most of the holidays, Veteran's Day has also become 'commercialized'. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy to celebrate and support our nations military...I was a military spouse--my husband retired in 2000-- and a soon to be military mom. I know what our service people go through and what the families have to deal with daily. As a military spouse you're suddenly thrust into single-parenthood. You become both mom and dad to the younger children. You have to learn to split your time equally...which can be difficult if you have more than one child...and multitask like a maniac and hopefully squeeze out a little bit of 'me' time in the evening. 

When my husband and I married, he'd already been in the Coast Guard for ten years (yes, the Coast Guard is part of the military). In those ten years we had four children, moved four times. The first move was in Alaska, when our son was 4 and our daughter was nine months old. My husband was on a Cutter for two years and in those two years spent a total of 6 months at home...long enough to give us another child. haha After returning to the lower forty-eight, we had another child and moved three more times, but luckily within the state of Texas. The last year and a half, my husband lived on-site in south Texas while we lived six hours away....all for financial reasons and because child #2 had special needs and needed to be closer to Houston's Children's Hospital. So I was a single mom of four for 18 months. But, for me, it wasn't much of a chore.  I was used to doing things on my own and taking care of a large family. The hard part came when my husband visited because he messed up our routine. haha  But, being with him, serving with him, made us a stronger unit than we could have ever hoped for. And I'm very proud to have been a part of his first career.








Monday, October 14, 2013

Moving On

If you read my last blog post you probably walked...or rather clicked away thinking....Whine Much??  Or something less flattering. But, whatever. I'm over it.

So, now I'm going to post something writing related. This is actually a repost of an article I did a while back on another blog...with some minor adjustments. Why am I reposting?? Well....cuz I need to post something and my mind is a bit of a blank and lately I've had a few people make that irritating comment "I always wanted to write a book". 

Anyway....writing is as easy or as hard as you want to make it, but, truly, not everyone should try it without learning the proper technique....yes, there is one and then some. And, once you learn it then put your own spin on it. How do you learn technique? By READING! Me, I love to read, doesn’t matter the genre—mystery, thriller, suspense, romance, and I tend to fall in love with the characters, especially if they’re recurring.

One of my favorite characters is Lee Child’s Jack Reacher. Lee is eighteen novels into this character and every book takes you on a pulse-pounding adventure and you can’t wait to grab the next book to see where he goes next. But, I have to admit, the first character I fell in love with wasn’t so much a single character as it was a family of characters.  

One of the first romance writers I ever read was Nora Roberts. My kids gave me one of her books for my birthday back in the early 90’s…okay, I bought it and said it was from them…they were still babies. Haha  Anyway, after devouring that book I tried to get my hands on as many of her books as I could find and that’s when I came across the Macgregor's! If you’re not familiar with them, look for them at your local library or on Amazon. Love her or hate her, Nora knows how to bring a character to life so much so that you just want to adopt them.

Building a character isn’t really as hard as some seem to think. There are workshops and blog posts galore about how to build a character using worksheets and graphs and whatever. More power to you if that’s how you do it, but like plotting….I just can’t go there. It’s not that I don’t know anything about my character when I start writing because I do, they are generally a part of me and some members of my family—Hispanic, lower to middle class, everyday people---so I don’t need to chart it all.
 
In my novella, Her Will His Way, I started the story knowing only one thing about my character Anita Perez—she didn’t speak Spanish. Why is this a character trait? Because Anita has just moved to the Rio Grande Valley in Texas, which is predominately Hispanic, to run a flower shop. She’s too stubborn to admit she won’t succeed, especially when her sexy state trooper neighbor Antonio Hernandez tells her she can’t do it. (you’ll have to read the book…heh)

So anyway when I sit down to write a new novel the only information I need to know about my character is “What traumatic event happened to her/him as a child to make her/him the person s/he is today?” The rest—back-story, goal, motivation, conflict— will fall into place as I write.


But, I will say....though I find it easy to write a character, I sometimes have trouble naming them. So, I should do a contest or something, huh? Comment below, and I'll use your name in my next book as either a character or something else. We'll have to see where the book is going. haha

Saturday, October 05, 2013

Poor Poor Pitiful Me

(get that song in your head?...No?  Try this) heh

Okay, if you hate whining or pity parties....you might want to stop reading.  

Maybe it's the change in seasons...fun and sun summer to short days, cold nights autumn, or could be all the news I hear about other authors making it to #1 with a first book or a previously published book (not that I'm not happy for them, this is a tough business), but I'm starting to feel as if, maybe this whole writing thing isn't in my cards.  

I completed my first book ten years ago, after spending five years studying and learning everything I could find on how to write and sell a novel. It took eight years to get that baby published, although I had published a novella three years before. When I got that call I thought....this is it. I'm going to be famous (in a Nora Roberts kinda way)....believe me I'm not the only author to think that...delusional as it is. I didn't get too discouraged when it didn't happen, I figured, it's a short story, not many people will buy it but maybe I'll get enough of a fan base to want more work. Then, in 2011, I sold my novel, Forget Me Not. Since I'd barely made enough money to put gas in  my car with the novella, I wasn't expecting much from the new book, so I was very pleasantly surprised by my first royalty check. I figured, hey, people actually want to read my work. So I got to work cleaning up book three so I could get it published while I was also completing book four and beginning book five.  In 2012 I published Dark Obsession with a new electronic publisher who had a major publisher backing them. Then I really thought....okay....I should start making enough to pay off my credit card and put gas in my car. Needless to say, after being on sale for 16 months, that didn't happen...in fact I never surpassed double digits with any of my royalties.  Is the publisher to blame? Partly. Am I to blame? Partly.  Are my readers to blame? Definitely! Hah, just kidding.   

On the advice of another author who is raking in the dough self-publishing, I self-published my fourth book House of Cards. And while reviews are amazing and it even WON best book in the mainstream suspense category with RomCom, sales haven been....horrible, for lack of a better word.  

The thing is, I feel like I've done everything I can to get my name and books into the hands of readers. I've lowered the price, I've given them away, I've bought ads, I'm on Facebook, Twitter, Goodreads and several other social sites....I've done everything short of begging (okay, maybe some begging)...and still, readers don't even know I exist. It's very disheartening (to me and my muse and makes me feel like a child again) and I have to wonder, is it worth it? Am I deluding myself thinking my books are worth reading? That I can even write another book?  I mean, surely readers aren't being too subjective when they put books like 50 Shades of Grey or Dinosaur Erotica at the top of the charts....should I just start writing that kind of crap?  Tell me. What do I need to do to get my work in front of readers? Or....do my books really suck and people are just being nice? 

*sigh*     

Well....this blog didn't make me feel any better.

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