Sunday, May 18, 2014

Free to be Me

I am determined to be cheerful and happy in whatever situation I may find myself. For I have learned that the greater part of our misery or unhappiness is determined not by our circumstance but by our disposition.

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I am determined to be cheerful and happy in whatever situation I may find myself. For I have learned that the greater part of our misery or unhappiness is determined not by our circumstance but by our disposition. <Martha Washington > 



Is it me, or does this year seem to be flying by?  Seems like just yesterday I was changing diapers, carting kids to little league or ballet and fighting bedtime. Now, the kids are grown and, for the most part, moved out and it's just me and my husband. Which is a good thing. Now we can do what we want, when we want, without having to worry about babysitters.


When my kids were younger I would hear stories about the "empty nest" syndrome...how couples would have to learn to be a couple again or get used to not having the kids around as buffers or excuses to do things together....and I waited for it to happen for us....but it hasn't.  Sounds kinda bad, doesn't it? I love my children to the Heavens and back, and I miss the days when they were young and home....but not to the extent of not knowing who I am without them. And, my husband and I have never had problems with being a couple. Over our 22 years of marriage, we'd do the occasional 'date night'....which happens more now than before. We enjoy each other's company but we also enjoy doing our own thing. He likes to golf, I like to be alone to read or write or maybe visit the local casino.  My husband's job requires him to travel a lot which has never been a problem for me and he was away a lot when the children were still in elementary school because of being in the service, which was still not an issue for me because I'm an extreme introvert...I LIKE to be alone with me. Plus, being raised by a single parent (my aunt) I had to step up often to be the adult and take care of the family (in a housewife sort of way) so I was used to it. The family and their needs always came first.


So, now that I don't have children to take care of (more or less) I can focus on me. Back in '99 I decided I wanted to pursue a writing career. I'd always loved making up stories and had an active imagination, so I started training myself on how to write a novel. In 2003 I sat down and wrote my first book, which I completed within two months. Now, because I was still 'green' and not as trained in the craft as I thought I was, it took a lot of time to fix the story in order to make it publishable. I did countless revisions, added scenes, pulled scenes and rewrote scenes. Eight years after I wrote The End on the last page, I sold the book, Forget Me Not, to Decadent Publishing!  In 2003, a couple of weeks after finishing Forget Me Not, I started a second book. It took me two months to write as well because the story had been in my head for a very long time. Again, the time between writing the end and publishing was quite long, but I'm thrilled to say Dark Obsession is now available online!


Back in the day when we lived off my husband's Coast Guard salary and money was so tight we had to pawn whatever we had of value just to buy food, I never stopped believing things would get better. Patience is a virtue I learned to hold on to. And faith is something I've never given up.


Thursday, April 17, 2014

Vacation Memories

        So we’re talking vacations this month. It’s a bit premature since most vacations happen in the summer. 
I never really took vacations until after I was married and had kids and my husband retired from the Coast Guard and found another job, because we just couldn’t afford to. Our first family vacation was 2002. A trip to Florida. My nieces Heather and Sierra joined us, along with Sierra’s brother Nik. We went to both Disneyworld and Universal studios and had a blast! The kids were all at the perfect age to enjoy the rides and shows.  As much fun as that was though, I think my most memorable vacation was the one I took in 1975, with my whole family. It was the first and only vacation I can remember us taking and the last because a few months later my mom passed away.  I can still remember when she came to tell us we were taking a trip. She just walked in the room while we were watching TV and said, “We’re going on a trip, so pack some clothes and get some sleep. We’re leaving very early in the morning.”  Yeah, it was a spur of the moment thing. I think my aunt and uncle talked her into it, they came with us.

So we all piled into our Suburban…seven kids aged nine to seventeen, a two year old toddler and three adults and took a road trip south along the Texas gulf coastline. I remember we made stops in Alice, Kingsville, Corpus Christie and Brownsville….visiting with family mostly. Then we took a trip across the border to Mexico to do some shopping.  I don’t remember which town it was, there are a few you can cross into that welcome tourists.  Along the river on the Mexico side, you’ll see children of all ages begging for money and scrambling like ants for the measly coins people toss down to them. Once you cross the river via the international bridge and you’re accosted by merchants trying to sell you everything from candies to clothing to wall hangings. Even children, some as young as five, will try to sell you packets of gum.  The streets are lined with stores and the sidewalks are crowded with carts filled with leather belts, handbags, jewelry,  everything you can think of. And, occasionally you’ll pass a store and your senses are filled with the spicy aroma of Mexican food.  I don’t remember if anyone bought anything, although I’m sure we did.  But, you have to be careful who you turn down because if it’s the wrong person, you could end up cursed. I saw a woman give my mother a dirty look when she told her no and a couple of months later mom got sick. (Superstitious much?)

I’ve made a few trips back to Mexico over the years and not much has changed.  The children are still begging for loose change, merchants are still trying to make deals, and you won’t find better Mexican food. Of course, I avoid eye-contact, for obvious reasons. Hah

A few years back, while I was working on my book Dark Obsession (available May 5th), my aunt, cousin and I took a trip back down the Rio Grande Valley (the gulf coastline) so I could get some visuals. Dark Obsession takes place in the valley….almost all of my stories do, actually.  I got some great stories from my aunt’s in-laws as well as some great scenery to use in the story.  

Anyway, speaking of Dark Obsession, the book is being re-released May 5th. I hope you’ll pick up a copy and help spread the word. =)

Here’s the blurb and a short excerpt for your reading pleasure. 

DARK OBSESSION

        A chance encounter seals the fate of a reclusive farmer and a mysterious woman who's on the run from a man who will stop at nothing to control her--including murder.
Ray Chavez  doesn’t believe in visions or omens or the mysticism of his Mexican/Indian heritage. When he’s awakened by the spirit of this great-grandmother with a message that something is coming, Ray passes it off as a bad dream. But he may just reconsider his position when he finds Lexie Solis stranded on the edge of town, in search of a new life. Ray feels an instant attraction, as well as a connection, to the skittish young woman, and he pursues a relationship with her. But what Lexie doesn’t tell Ray or his family, is that she is on the run from an abusive ex-boyfriend and he may be more powerful than even she wants to believe. When Lexie is assaulted by an unseen force, they learn that the man she is hiding from is a master of the dark arts and his obsession with Lexie goes beyond his need to control her; he wants to possess her soul as well. As their past lives parallel, Lexie’s only hope for salvation is in Ray’s hands. But can he accept his destiny in time to save the woman he loves? 

Excerpt:

Sylvia dropped onto the kitchen chair and scowled at her brother. She’d rushed straight from work after her grandmother called and told her about their new visitor. She couldn’t help but wonder if it were the same visitor her cards had been warning her about for the past week and even after she voiced this concern Ray still had the nerve to patronize her.

She’s not some stray puppy you picked up from the side of the road, Ray,” she said. I’m just saying you don’t know anything about her.”

Ray leaned against the counter, crossing his legs at the ankles, and sent her a crooked grin. Damn. And I was really looking forward to teaching her a few tricks.”

Stop thinking with your glands and think with your head, Big Brother,” Sylvia snapped.

I’ve been thinking with my glands since I was fourteen. It’s a hard habit to break.”

Sylvia curled her lip at him and turned to her grandmother for support. She had sensed a mal puesta in the young woman and performed a limpia to heal her. It was a ritual they often worked for the families in town who came to see them about their curses. The inflicted would lie on a small cot and her grandmother would wave an egg over them, chanting a series of novenas.

She did this same cleansing on the young woman in Ray’s old bedroom. When she finished she took the egg and cracked it into a glass of salt water. The egg sizzled and cooked, curling its way to the surface like a snake trying to escape the flames of hell.

 Look for this and other works at my website: www.terrimolina.com

Monday, January 20, 2014

I knew....

Josephine Martinez Molina
January 20, 1935 - June 15, 1975 

It's so true when they say your life can change in an instant. I've always believed things happen for a reason, that there's a purpose for why or when. Events in your life, good or bad, build the person you become. You just don't realize it until later if they made you better or stronger.
My mom died on Father's Day, 1975, two days before my thirteenth birthday. I remember the day vividly; waking up at eight in the morning and seeing my oldest sister climbing into my aunt's car. My first thought, before I fell back asleep was, "she must be going to the hospital because mom died." Yeah, pretty morbid thought to have, but I just had that gut feeling. In fact, several months before, when my brothers and sisters and I gathered on the floor around my mom's easy chair and she told us she had to go into the hospital my first question to her was, "are you going to die?" She spent a lot of weeks in the hospital and in that time I mourned her loss. I just knew she wasn't going to come home. And, a couple of hours later, when my cousin came to the house and ushered us into our Suburban without caring if we'd had breakfast, I knew. When he dropped us at the entrance and said to go to the nurse's station. I knew. When we rode up into the elevator to the fourth floor, my younger brother and sister chattering and laughing, I knew. When the floor nurse told us to go to the room opposite the one our mother was in, I knew. And when I opened the door and found it full of my family, tears streaming down their cheeks, my brother standing still against the window, his expression blank...I knew.
Over the years, as I got older, I thought a lot about what it must have been like for her, raising seven children, alone, widowed at the age of 36. As a child, I didn't give her the respect she deserved--children rarely do when they're young. But, I was number 5 in the bunch (of 7), and I didn't feel like she cared about me as much as the others. I now know, with that many children, it's hard to give time to just one. Especially when all they do is fight...yeah, we fought often...not physically, verbally. I used to wonder if maybe she begged God to take her away.

When I started having children I used to think: don't let me be like her.  When, in fact, I want to be like her. She was strong and caring and loving and she didn't let anything break her.
I don't know what kind of relationship we would have had if she lived, but I like to believe we would have been close.

I think about her often, especially during the holidays when my children are gathered around me.  I wonder if she knows how much I love her and miss her. And I hope I've made her proud.

There's a song by Christina Aguilera called Hurt, that resonates with me and sums up a lot of what I would say if she were here today. The lyrics are below.

But, most of all, I would tell her, Thank you. 

Happy Birthday.



Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Ooh ooh
 I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes.
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again.
Sometimes I wanna call you but I know you won't be there
Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this, ooh, whoa
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
 There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back
Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, oh, oh, oh.
If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you since you've been away
Oh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you



Oh, and, in honor of mom's birthday,  from now (January 20) thru Wednesday (the 22nd) my novel House of Cards will be on sale for just .99 cents. 



Monday, November 11, 2013

Happy Veteran's Day!

Official seal of the United States Department of Veterans AffairsIn November 1919, President Wilson proclaimed November 11 as the first commemoration of Armistice Day with the following words: "To us in America, the reflections of Armistice Day will be filled with solemn pride in the heroism of those who died in the country’s service and with gratitude for the victory, both because of the thing from which it has freed us and because of the opportunity it has given America to show her sympathy with peace and justice in the councils of the nations…"
Did you know we've been celebrating this holiday for nearly 100 years? I don't think a lot of people do (know it). I think it's become one of those holidays you wait for because it means "big sales" at the department stores or a day off from work (especially if you're a government employee). Like most of the holidays, Veteran's Day has also become 'commercialized'. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy to celebrate and support our nations military...I was a military spouse--my husband retired in 2000-- and a soon to be military mom. I know what our service people go through and what the families have to deal with daily. As a military spouse you're suddenly thrust into single-parenthood. You become both mom and dad to the younger children. You have to learn to split your time equally...which can be difficult if you have more than one child...and multitask like a maniac and hopefully squeeze out a little bit of 'me' time in the evening. 

When my husband and I married, he'd already been in the Coast Guard for ten years (yes, the Coast Guard is part of the military). In those ten years we had four children, moved four times. The first move was in Alaska, when our son was 4 and our daughter was nine months old. My husband was on a Cutter for two years and in those two years spent a total of 6 months at home...long enough to give us another child. haha After returning to the lower forty-eight, we had another child and moved three more times, but luckily within the state of Texas. The last year and a half, my husband lived on-site in south Texas while we lived six hours away....all for financial reasons and because child #2 had special needs and needed to be closer to Houston's Children's Hospital. So I was a single mom of four for 18 months. But, for me, it wasn't much of a chore.  I was used to doing things on my own and taking care of a large family. The hard part came when my husband visited because he messed up our routine. haha  But, being with him, serving with him, made us a stronger unit than we could have ever hoped for. And I'm very proud to have been a part of his first career.








Monday, October 14, 2013

Moving On

If you read my last blog post you probably walked...or rather clicked away thinking....Whine Much??  Or something less flattering. But, whatever. I'm over it.

So, now I'm going to post something writing related. This is actually a repost of an article I did a while back on another blog...with some minor adjustments. Why am I reposting?? Well....cuz I need to post something and my mind is a bit of a blank and lately I've had a few people make that irritating comment "I always wanted to write a book". 

Anyway....writing is as easy or as hard as you want to make it, but, truly, not everyone should try it without learning the proper technique....yes, there is one and then some. And, once you learn it then put your own spin on it. How do you learn technique? By READING! Me, I love to read, doesn’t matter the genre—mystery, thriller, suspense, romance, and I tend to fall in love with the characters, especially if they’re recurring.

One of my favorite characters is Lee Child’s Jack Reacher. Lee is eighteen novels into this character and every book takes you on a pulse-pounding adventure and you can’t wait to grab the next book to see where he goes next. But, I have to admit, the first character I fell in love with wasn’t so much a single character as it was a family of characters.  

One of the first romance writers I ever read was Nora Roberts. My kids gave me one of her books for my birthday back in the early 90’s…okay, I bought it and said it was from them…they were still babies. Haha  Anyway, after devouring that book I tried to get my hands on as many of her books as I could find and that’s when I came across the Macgregor's! If you’re not familiar with them, look for them at your local library or on Amazon. Love her or hate her, Nora knows how to bring a character to life so much so that you just want to adopt them.

Building a character isn’t really as hard as some seem to think. There are workshops and blog posts galore about how to build a character using worksheets and graphs and whatever. More power to you if that’s how you do it, but like plotting….I just can’t go there. It’s not that I don’t know anything about my character when I start writing because I do, they are generally a part of me and some members of my family—Hispanic, lower to middle class, everyday people---so I don’t need to chart it all.
 
In my novella, Her Will His Way, I started the story knowing only one thing about my character Anita Perez—she didn’t speak Spanish. Why is this a character trait? Because Anita has just moved to the Rio Grande Valley in Texas, which is predominately Hispanic, to run a flower shop. She’s too stubborn to admit she won’t succeed, especially when her sexy state trooper neighbor Antonio Hernandez tells her she can’t do it. (you’ll have to read the book…heh)

So anyway when I sit down to write a new novel the only information I need to know about my character is “What traumatic event happened to her/him as a child to make her/him the person s/he is today?” The rest—back-story, goal, motivation, conflict— will fall into place as I write.


But, I will say....though I find it easy to write a character, I sometimes have trouble naming them. So, I should do a contest or something, huh? Comment below, and I'll use your name in my next book as either a character or something else. We'll have to see where the book is going. haha

Saturday, October 05, 2013

Poor Poor Pitiful Me

(get that song in your head?...No?  Try this) heh

Okay, if you hate whining or pity parties....you might want to stop reading.  

Maybe it's the change in seasons...fun and sun summer to short days, cold nights autumn, or could be all the news I hear about other authors making it to #1 with a first book or a previously published book (not that I'm not happy for them, this is a tough business), but I'm starting to feel as if, maybe this whole writing thing isn't in my cards.  

I completed my first book ten years ago, after spending five years studying and learning everything I could find on how to write and sell a novel. It took eight years to get that baby published, although I had published a novella three years before. When I got that call I thought....this is it. I'm going to be famous (in a Nora Roberts kinda way)....believe me I'm not the only author to think that...delusional as it is. I didn't get too discouraged when it didn't happen, I figured, it's a short story, not many people will buy it but maybe I'll get enough of a fan base to want more work. Then, in 2011, I sold my novel, Forget Me Not. Since I'd barely made enough money to put gas in  my car with the novella, I wasn't expecting much from the new book, so I was very pleasantly surprised by my first royalty check. I figured, hey, people actually want to read my work. So I got to work cleaning up book three so I could get it published while I was also completing book four and beginning book five.  In 2012 I published Dark Obsession with a new electronic publisher who had a major publisher backing them. Then I really thought....okay....I should start making enough to pay off my credit card and put gas in my car. Needless to say, after being on sale for 16 months, that didn't happen...in fact I never surpassed double digits with any of my royalties.  Is the publisher to blame? Partly. Am I to blame? Partly.  Are my readers to blame? Definitely! Hah, just kidding.   

On the advice of another author who is raking in the dough self-publishing, I self-published my fourth book House of Cards. And while reviews are amazing and it even WON best book in the mainstream suspense category with RomCom, sales haven been....horrible, for lack of a better word.  

The thing is, I feel like I've done everything I can to get my name and books into the hands of readers. I've lowered the price, I've given them away, I've bought ads, I'm on Facebook, Twitter, Goodreads and several other social sites....I've done everything short of begging (okay, maybe some begging)...and still, readers don't even know I exist. It's very disheartening (to me and my muse and makes me feel like a child again) and I have to wonder, is it worth it? Am I deluding myself thinking my books are worth reading? That I can even write another book?  I mean, surely readers aren't being too subjective when they put books like 50 Shades of Grey or Dinosaur Erotica at the top of the charts....should I just start writing that kind of crap?  Tell me. What do I need to do to get my work in front of readers? Or....do my books really suck and people are just being nice? 

*sigh*     

Well....this blog didn't make me feel any better.

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Ten Years and Four Books Later, I'm still in awe


It's hard to believe that ten years ago this year I completed my first and second novels. When I was writing them, I had no idea they'd ever get published....I'd hoped they would, but it wasn't really a big goal. I was just thrilled to have written, and finished, them.

This week marks the five year anniversary of publishing my first book....although not the first book I wrote...that took another three years to happen.

Since that first day I put the kids to bed and sat at the computer, I've published four books (total), and although I'm not at the level of success I had begun to hope I'd be, I'm very happy with how my work is received. Reviews are wonderful and I rarely get something snarky from a reviewer who just wants to rain on my parade. My work has even won a few awards, given by readers, which is much better than being judged by other writers. haha

Anyway, writing four books over the last ten years doesn't seem like a lot, but it really is. Believe it or not, writing is hard work...especially for me because I don't plot my work. I come up with a title, the characters and a basic..."what if" sentence, then I start writing. For the most part I'm just "throwing up words on the page", which wouldn't be so bad if I didn't have to go back to previous pages and fix a plot point because it changed when I threw my smorgasbord together.  But....annoying as it is sometimes, that works for me. It doesn't get the work written any faster but it makes for a fairly clean first draft (story-wise, not punctuation-wise. Haha)  Of course if I were a more prolific writer, I'd be Allison Brennan.  Yeah....not a bad dream to have.

Eventually I'll get faster at writing. I almost have to or I'll lose the ideas for the other stories in my head. And, knowing that there are people out there, waiting for new work from me and enjoying what I've written so far is very humbling. I wouldn't be celebrating anything if it weren't for my readers, so Thank You!!

Oh, and in case you hadn't heard, I made a change to my novel House of Cards. It's a new cover, to better reflect the romantic suspense element. This novel also won the Reader's Crown for Best Romantic Suspense at RomCom.

Thursday, March 21, 2013

"Let's do our taxes" is no longer a euphemism

"In this world nothing can be said to be certain, except death and taxes." Benjamin Franklin.

I don't think Ben expected that quote to become as famous as it did when he penned it in a letter a hundred years ago, but it still rings true today.

When I was younger, and first started working full time, I couldn't wait for tax time, because it meant I'd been getting back a couple of hundred dollars from the taxes I paid in. Once I got married, the refunds got a bit larger. Although, now when the sidekick says “lets do our taxes” it’s not a euphemism for escaping behind closed doors.

This year, like the past ten before (when he retired from the military), he’ll gather all the financial statements and try to figure out, if any, how much money we’ll get back. Yes, my husband prefers to do the taxes himself. No, he does not have a degree in accounting. Like most men, he does not like to ask for directions but would prefer to circle the hemisphere looking for the interstate. Okay, so far he’s not gotten lost amongst the 1040’s and 1099’s and we’ve been lucky enough to get a refund, but I still think it would be better to have a professional look at it and see if he can find more deductions. (Now that all the kids are grown, we lose those tax breaks.) But that’s not a debate I wish to have. For some reason, it gives him a sense of accomplishment to do the paperwork, as if he’s thinking to himself Those bastards aren’t gonna wear me down! And, he does get us a refund each year which we use for vacation.

Anyway, doing the taxes isn’t really that hard, just time consuming. This year I did the taxes for my kids....they have their own jobs. Their taxes are easy to do because they don’t make much money, so it’s the EZ form. And, sadly, they don’t get much back either. This year, my son had to pay into state, which is the fault of the company he works for because they didn’t do the paperwork correctly. His federal refund wasn’t anything to jump for joy about either....of course he only makes $24000 a year....which is horrible for a security guard who has to put his life on the line as much as the local police do. (don’t get me started)

So....before this turns into a rant....have you done your taxes yet? If you’re getting a refund, what do you plan to do with it?

Wednesday, January 02, 2013

Reacher Movie...Hit or Miss?

When I first heard that Lee Child's book "One Shot" was optioned for a movie I became somewhat excited. After all it's a great story and a super hot hero (on the page at least) and it would make a really good action flick. Then I heard Tom Cruise was going to take the lead and like every single one of Lee Child's fans, I outwardly cringed. Aside from not being a fan of Cruise, the Jack Reacher character is described a 6'5 and 250 pounds of lean muscle mass.  I mean...come on, are you really that vain Mr. Cruise to think you can pull off such a 'larger than life' character? 
Needless to say, I decided to go see the movie and try to keep an open mind. My son, who has read all the books as well, saw it a few days after it released and, according to my daughter and his girlfriend, he liked the movie. So I expected to be pleasantly surprised. I mean, even Rolling Stone magazine said Cruise "nailed" it (not that I read Rolling Stone magazine).
Well, I just got home from the theater and I have to say, I was not pleasantly surprised or impressed. I tried to keep an open mind, really, I did. But, I just couldn't get my head around Cruise as Reacher. Aside from the fact that Cruise could fit in the palm of Reacher's hand, he just doesn't carry the macho attitude or deliver the dry quips in the same wry manner that the character does in the books. I found the screenplay to be a bit choppy and felt like it was moving from point A to point C without connecting to point B. Although I guess I felt that way because I reread the book over the weekend so the full story was fresh in my mind. I guess you could say the book ruined the movie for me...although I'll take the book over the movie, anytime!  Granted, they had to squeeze a nearly 500 page novel into a two and a half hour movie, but they really could have done a better job.
As for the acting, Cruise was Cruise...he has no real range as an actor, in my opinion and again, for Reacher's character, he just didn't work. He tried too hard to be blasé and laidback and it came across forced. The woman, whom I'd never heard of, who played Helen Rodin always looked like she wanted to jump out of her skin. She was just too deer-in-the-headlights for me.
Anyway, my sidekick enjoyed the movie, but he doesn't read the books so he had nothing to compare it to.
So.....would I recommend this movie? Well, if you're not an avid fan of the books/character, then sure...spend your money. You'll probably enjoy it. But, if, like me, your a fan....you'll tolerate it.... as long as you don't reread the book first.  I will say, I did get a kick out of seeing Lee's cameo.

Thursday, November 29, 2012

Can't Buy Me Love

Before I start my post, I wanted to announce my winner from Friday's Blog Hop.....and the winner is... TwiMom22580!!  Congratulations!

Now....

In case you live in a non-powerball state, you'll know the powerball lottery was drawn last night and worth just over 500 Million Dollars!  Of course like many across the country, my husband and I both bought ticket and like many millions across the country, we didn't win. I knew when I woke up this morning that we didn't because my alarm woke me instead of my husband screaming. haha

I didn't expect to win....I never do....but it's kind of exciting to wait and watch. And, honestly, I don't know that I'd even want to win 500 million dollars...that's just too much freaking money. I mean, really, does anyone need that much money?? All you're going to do with it is buy stupid things like a 12 bedroom mansion you'd get lost in and would never clean, or a porche that puts a "rob me" bullseye on your head. All that money will just change a person into someone they always hated.

Now, I'm not saying I wouldn't ever want to win the lottery, just not 500 million....I'd be happy with a million. That would still pay off my bills, get my kids through college and take care of my husband and I when he retires in fifteen years. I'd also give money to my brothers and sisters (and in-laws) and their kids.

So...how much would you be happy with if you won the lottery? And, what would you do with it?

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Cuz Everybody Hurts....sometimes

So yesterday while at my chapter meeting one of our members gave a talk about "the five stages of critques", likening it to the five stages of grief. In case you don't know what they are, they're
  1. denial
  2. anger
  3. sadness
  4. reoranization (pick yourself up, dust yourself off...blah blah)
  5. moving on
It was a nice mini program. Afterward, during the break, one of the members came to me and mentioned that I judged her manuscript in a contest last year and really trashed it. While one other judge gave her a perfect score of 75, I gave her a 30. She said my comments were mean and had she been a newbie writer, the comments would have made her think twice about writing. She then said "if you aren't published you shouldn't judge contests."  Okay....hold the phone! First, I AM PUBLISHED and have been since 2008 and I just recently launched my fourth book. Second, while my comments to anyone I critique can come across harsh (yes, I admit it), I always apologize up front and try to explain my reasons. I also say, it's only my opinion.

Now, since her comments to me came across a bit....mean as well, I decided to look up the story in question. The collection of entries I had to judge were in my 'sent' folder so I could still pull them up and I have to say after looking at the submission again and my comments...I STAND BY EVERY WORD.  This author is multi-published herself with an electronic publisher (like me), however in historical romance. This manuscript she entered in the contest was a contemporary....totally different kind of writing. 

Here is the closing comment I made on the entry:
MY SINCEREST APOLOGIES FOR THE LOW SCORES, BUT, INHO, THIS BOOK IS NOT READY FOR PULICATION.  WHILE YOU MAY HAVE A GOOD PREMISE FOR THIS STORY, I DON’T FEEL YOU’VE DEVELOPED IT ENOUGH. THERE IS TOO MUCH TELLING AND AUTHOR INTRUSION.  WATCH FOR THE OVERUSE OF ADVERBS.
I WOULD SUGGEST TAKING SOME CLASSES ON CRAFT. (RWA HAS SOME GREAT ONLINE CLASSES) THERE ARE ALSO SEVERAL AUTHORS WHO BLOG ON CRAFT, THAT YOU CAN LEARN FROM.
TAKE YOUR TIME WITH THE STORY AND CHARACTERS. BUILD THEM FROM THE GROUND UP.
BEST OF LUCK TO YOU.
That's not so bad, right?

Anyway, now that I know I'm right (hah) I can jump to step 5 and move on.

So, tell me, do you ever get nasty critiques? (of course, everyone does...I've had some doozies!)  How do you handle them?


One more thing....if you're visiting before November 30 you should know...my novel House of Cards is free at Amazon. Just click on this link.

Friday, November 23, 2012

BLACK FRIDAY BLOG HOP


It's been exactly thirteen months and two weeks since my novel Forget Me Not debuted. In case you haven't read my blog before, you should know this was my first full length novel to publish as well as the first full length novel I'd ever completed. It took me eight very long and frustrating years to publish this book and in those eight years the story went through a lot of revisions. I didn't do these revisions lightly. I had a lot of help, suggestions, advice, brainstorming from many friends and authors as well as an editor or four. :)
Anyway, one of the major changes I did was to toss out my first chapter and open with what was chapter two (after rewriting that several times!) I still have that first chapter as well as several other scenes I had to cut. I keep them in a deleted scene folder. I guess you could call me a horder of the written word. hah
Despite having to make so many changes, I'm very, very pleased with how the book turned out. Over the past year it's finaled in two "reader" contests and has been a top seller with my publisher. The reviews have been beyond amazing.
Now, if you're curious about that first chapter, well...here it is....unedited of course, so what's here either didn't make it in the book or did with some changes (like names and such).
Enjoy.  

FORGET ME NOT--DELETED SCENE
Twenty-five years on the job and it still pissed him off to find a crowd at a murder scene.
Special Agent John Simms flipped his collar against the cold spring air and kept his eye trained on the door of the building as he crossed the street. Although the sun barely winked in the sky, a crowd had already gathered around the brownstone apartment building. It didn’t seem to matter that the poor soul found murdered in her home lived two stories up or that the voyeurs were pressed back behind the yellow police tape, they still tried to stretch their necks like a child’s toy to get a glimpse of the activity inside the building and the mutilated corpse once it was wheeled to the coroner’s hearse.
He blamed the entertainment industry for the morbid curiosity. T.V. shows, blockbuster movies, even some of the novels on the New York Times bestseller list glamorized crime as if it were a game. Every psychopath in the country rose to the challenge to see who could better the other without getting voted off the island. 
It made his job that much harder sometimes.
He flashed his identification to the young officer assigned to keep the onlookers and gathering reporters back and continued inside to the entryway of the building.
Though the neighborhood wasn’t located in one of the more upscale communities in the city, there was an antiquated charm to the narrow foyer. Streams of sunlight beamed like spotlights through several small pane-glass windows along the ceiling, casting a dull gleam on the scuffed cherry-wood floors.
Inside the open doors of a gated elevator car one of New York’s finest brushed powder along the buttons. Across the hall another officer spread ash over the handrail of the stairs. Tiny dust motes rose into the air, dancing around the tear-shaped  glass dangling from the light fixture.
Since both officers chose to ignore him, he put on a pair of latex gloves and climbed the steps to the next floor. Lining the hallway like imperial guards was a handful of police officers. They sent him an assessing glance and he saw the flicker of disdain before they chose to ignore him like their fellow officers on the lower floor.
Agent Simms opened his wallet for the young officer dusting along the door jamb and peered into the apartment at the work the responding police officers were doing.
“Who’s in charge?” he asked.
The officer spared a glance at the gold FBI badge and continued to sweep the ashen powder on the aged wood.
“Lieutenant Goodrich,” he said, motioning toward an elderly man in a wrinkled suit. “He’s talking with the coroner right now.”
Agent Simms nodded his thanks and stepped into the room to wait for the paunchy detective to finish his conversation with the woman from the coroner’s office. Over the years he’d made a point not to show up at a crime scene before his partner. Darryl Hawthorne was what Simms called a ‘people person’ and it was his unofficial job to arrive first at the crime scene and smooth the ruffled feathers of whichever precinct was in charge of the investigation. It didn’t seem to matter that they were all on the same team. In all his years on the job, the responding homicide detectives didn’t like to share any part of their investigation with the FBI, nor did they like to get pushed out of the loop. However, since Agent Hawthorne was enjoying a morning in with his new wife, Simms decided to handle this case on his own.
He could be diplomatic when he needed to be.
He stepped farther into the room and studied the layout, placing it with the others in his head.
The area was small, stuffed with furniture which looked like it had been bought at a flea market. On the far wall stood a built-in book shelf lined with various paperbacks. The whole of the room appeared clean and in order, with the exception of the dusty mess the officers made. The faint smell of pine soap and bleach lingered in the air.  
Agent Simms caught the irritated glare from Lieutenant Goodrich when the coroner step away. He squared his shoulders and returned the look. So, maybe diplomacy would have to take a backseat.
“Yeah? What can I do for you?” Lieutenant Goodrich. He dropped two antacids into his mouth from the roll he pulled out of his jacket.
“I’m Special Agent John Simms. I’d like to take a look at the body.” He tucked his ID in the lining of his jacket and took a step toward the bedroom. He stopped and arched his brow when the lieutenant raised his hand to block him.
“This is a simple rape and murder agent and my jurisdiction.”
“Rape and murder is never simple, Detective and since it came across my wire, I’m authorized to look into it,” he returned. He glanced at the hand inches from his chest, then back at the lieutenant. “The body, if you don’t mind.”
A sound much like a growl grated from the lieutenant’s throat before he turned and stepped into a small bedroom.
Simms clenched his teeth and gave himself a moment to prepare for the familiar stench of death. The disinfectants hadn't been strong enough to cover the smell.
Crumpled in the center of the bed lay the nude body of a woman. Her face was pressed into the baby blue sheets which were saturated and discolored with blood.
Simms continued to the side of the bed and carefully moved a strand of matted hair from what was left of the woman's face.
A string of curses ran through his head, but he kept the detachment in his voice when he spoke.
“What’s the story?”
“Don’t you know?” Lieutenant Goodrich said. To his credit he didn’t flinch at the heated glare Simms shot him. With a heavy sigh he shoved his hands in his jacket pockets and fingered the roll of antacids.
“We don’t have a positive ID just yet, the bastard did quite a number on her face. But the apartment belongs to a Catherine Flores,” he said. “She’s a school teacher in New Rochelle. This morning the landlord got a complaint about the smell. Since Ms.  Flores had mentioned she would be out of town for a few days, he let himself in, found the body like this and called 911--but not before he lost his lunch in the bathroom.” He cleared his throat in a weak attempt to hide his smirk. “There was no forced entry so either she knew her attacker or he was waiting nearby for her. We’re already talking to the neighbors, but as usual no one saw anything.”
“Are you positive she was raped?” Agent Simms asked. He stepped away from the body, scanning the room and the work by the police forensics team. The police photographer hovered over the bed, snapping pictures from different angles. Simms made a mental note to get a copy of them for his files.
“There's evidence of vaginal tearing and a little blood, so it's likely she was,” a female voice answered behind him.
The coroner entered the room a step ahead of a burly man in a white jacket pushing a gurney. The name 'Karen Baden, M.D.' was embroidered above the left breast pocket of her lab coat.
She stepped to the side and nodded to her assistant to continue to the body.
“I didn't find any semen so he may have been wearing a condom,” she said.“Of course I'll know more after the autopsy, but my best guess would be the cause of death was the twenty or so stab wounds all over her body.”
“I’d like to know what you find as soon as possible,” Agent Simms said. Then, in an afterthought, added, “Please.”
“Well, as long as you said please,” the coroner said. She stepped around them to join her assistant next to the bed.
“This doesn’t appear to be one for your files, Agent Simms, since there’s no sign of a paperback with the body. Isn’t that why you’re here? You think this is one for your unsolved paperback murders?” Lieutenant Goodrich said.
Silence thickened the room. Several officers slowed their work to listen in on the conversation. Simms checked the urge to knock the smirk from the lieutenant’s voice.
“The fact that this homicide closely resembles the M.O. of the paperback case is why I’m here, Detective,” he said. “And why--if I deem it necessary--will take over this case.”
“It’s Lieutenant and until I find your evidence, this case belongs to me.” Goodrich glared at the police photographer who quickly turned to continue his pictures.
“Look Lieutenant, I’m really not interested in playing king of the mountain with you. We both have an interest in this case as well as a job to do. So you do yours and I’ll do mine. Then we’ll decide whose case this is.” See? He could be diplomatic.
The lieutenant scowled and stalked from the room. Simms turned back toward the bed as the coroner and her assistant prepared to wrap the body in a thin white sheet.
He wouldn't need to wait on the autopsy to know this would be his case before the day was over.
He’d been handed the Paperback Murder case three years earlier, after the body of Michelle Castillo, the daughter of a high-profile attorney in Chicago, had been found in an alley two blocks from her apartment. She’d been raped and mutilated, her body sprinkled with shredded strips of paper they later found to be parts of a book. The press quickly jumped on the story and dubbed it the Paperback Murder. Within a week he’d received calls from several major cities around the United States about an unsolved case with the same M.O.
He hadn’t been surprised when this call came in. He’d been expecting it.
Like the last twelve murders, their current victim was Hispanic, in her mid to late twenties, with a long slender body and dark brown to near black hair. She was an avid reader of romance, according to the assortment on her bookshelf, though there was no one particular author she collected.
Once they had a positive ID he would go about retracing the woman’s steps to find out if she had frequented a bar or club in the last forty-eight hours since all the victims before her had last been seen at one.
Simms blew out the tight breath he held and fisted his hands in his jacket pockets. So far the only link to the other murders that was missing was the shredded remains of a paperback novel.
“Your partner’s here,” Lieutenant Goodrich said, stepping back into the room. The scent of coffee filtered in from the cup the he’d taken from one of his officers. It reminded Simms that he still had a full cup cooling in his car.      
“You have something for me?” Simms asked as Agent Hawthorne entered the room.
“We got a conclusive I.D. on the last book,” he said, holding out a thin file folder. “They’re written by a woman named Casey Martin. She writes crime fiction but more along the lines of, uh, romance. I think they call it erotica or something.” He cleared his throat, a hint of color in his face. “Forensics went back over the other books and so far three of them are matches. The one here in New York last summer, the one from Chicago three years ago and the first one in L.A.”
“Did you pass this to Whitney?” Simms asked.
“Yeah and he said we need to find Miss Martin before it’s too late,” Hawthorne said.
Simms took the file, clenching his teeth as he looked over the papers. “She probably doesn’t even realize what she started with these books.”
“Gentlemen?” the coroner’s voice spoke behind him. “I believe there’s something here for you, Agent Simms.” She stepped back and gestured toward the bed.
In the center of the mattress where the body had laid was a paperback book. A small pair of scissors had been pushed through the eyes in the photograph of the woman on the back cover. The front cover had been intricately sliced, the only remaining letters spelling out the words-- Time To Die.
“Looks like this one belongs to you after all, Agent,” Lieutenant Goodrich said, popping another antacid into his mouth.
Now, since you've made it to the end of my post, you're entered to win a copy of this book in either print or electronic format. Just leave me a message and tell me, what kind of horder are you?  ;-)
And, don't forget to check out my previous blog post for a list of all the other wonderful Decadent Authors participating in the hop.

Saturday, November 17, 2012

Black Friday Blog Hop!!


As you can see, according to the little button up there, I will be participating in a blog hop on Black Friday along with about 45 of my Decadent Sisters.
I hope you'll swing by for a peek at my novel Forget Me Not, as well as enter for a chance to win your very own copy...in either print or electronic form.
Here's a list of all the ladies participating. See you then!


Tuesday, November 06, 2012

Where's The Beef?

Unless you've been living in a cave for the past year or so, you know today is Election Day. Join me in a chorous of FINALLY!  I don't know about you, but I am seriously sick of all the negative campaign ads constantly running on every channel on T.V. 

I'm not planning to vote....don't bitch at me about it....I just never registered in my new state (I should still be registered in Houston though..hah). My husband and daughter number 2 are voting though, and like many newish voters, aside from the president, they're at a loss as to who the other candidates are. All of our TV stations run constant ads on the candidates, but they're ads saying "don't vote for so and so, because they did this"...there's nothing saying what they will do better if elected. And it's even spilling over to the social media sites. Everyone has an opinion/complaint about the candidates it's hard to choose who to believe. Honestly, I'd rather watch Viagra commercials than listen to everyone smear his/her rival. 

Anyway, I'll be so glad when all of this is over and we can get back to normal....provided the 'right people' are elected to office.  Needless to say, tomorrow morning at least half the country/state is gonna be pissed.

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

I've got the music in me

I love music. I don't think there's anyone in the world who doesn't. The right song can pull you back in time. It can make you laugh, or make you cry. It can inspire you to be a better person.

I've listened to a variety of music over the years and as I've gotten older, my tastes have changed. As a child I listened to whatever my mom listened to (mostly Spanish performers, but for the life of me the only one I can remember isTrini Lopez, although it was actually an English language album). Then I started listening to whatever my oldest brother was listening to, which was what every teenager was listening to...The Beatles! I can still see him at the kitchen table with a box-sized radio, his ear against the tiny speaker, singing along.  Later, when he started buying their albums, he'd lounge beside the speaker of the console stereo system my mother bought. When I hit my pre-teen years I started listening to more of the "bubblegum" pop...Barry Manilow was my all-time favorite and I'm still a big fan. But, for the most part, my music choices were forged by whatever the adults in my family were listening to. Which meant I listened to a lot of country-western and Spanish music and the rock & roll of my older cousins.

Needless to say my music choices haven't changed much over the years. I still enjoy a wide variety of music, mainly because I have teenagers and they listen to what's popular now....and thankfull they aren't big fans of rap with the exception of Eminem....who I can tolerate to a point.  Of course, my kid's taste in music came from both me and my husband (who, being a musician, loves Rock, 'hair bands' and country). Our kids also like the "oldies" (anything before 1990 is an oldie to them.)  and they're also big Beatle fans, so I've done my job well teaching them about music. hah

This past weekend my husband and I took our girls to the Carrie Underwood concert. Hunter Hayes, a 21 year old newcomer, was her opening act and the main reason daughter number one wanted to go. While sitting there waiting for him to finish his set (I really don't see the appeal) I started thinking about the first concert I ever went to. It was.....you guessed it....Barry Manilow. He played in Carbondale, Illinois where my older sister and her now ex-husband, lived. They got the tickets and surprised me with them. Her Ex was a fan but my sister wasn't, she only went because we wanted to go. Of course, once the concert was over, she totally changed her mind about him...it was that good! Anyway, it was my first concert and my biggest idol so you can imagine how excited I was. I was literally like those girls you see on old footage of a Beatle's concert...in fact, the minute Barry stepped on stage I cried....seriously! I never make fun of those girls anymore. haha  I've since seen Barry four times and he's just as entertaining. Of course I don't cry with excitement like I did the first time, but I still get giddy like a school girl.






Thursday, October 18, 2012

Call me Invisible

I hate marketing. And I'm not talking about going to Walmart. There is just so much I can do to get the word out about my books...some days I just want to give up. 

Bestselling authors become bestselling authors because of word of mouth....and the occasional write up with the New York Times. Bestselling authors also have help from their publishers who give them publicists to help get the word out. Small publishers, or Indies as they're called, don't always offer that kind of help, although Decadent did, which is probably why my book Forget Me Not was one of their top sellers. But, sadly it's not enough when it comes to my other published works. So, I'm left to do it myself...and as I said...I hate marketing. I'm just not the "look at me" kind of person and when I try I feel like I'm one of those annoying narcistic persons who just have to call attention to themselves. But, if I don't do it, then I stay invisible. Which I'm used to, so why complain.

Okay, now I'm just sounding whiny. Must be my lack of sleep.

So....let's pretend I like doing my own publicity. Today I'm blogging at Romancing the Genres, today...my monthly blog. Romancing the Genres: It's Not a Mystery Where Ideas Are Born:  Feel free to swing by. I even posted an excerpt of my newest release House of Cards...which is my best book to date, but no one will ever know it......okay, I should just go back to bed. :-/

Tuesday, October 09, 2012

Cuz, I Won't Give Up

It’s hard for me to believe that in less than a week I’ll be launching my new book, House of Cards. It took me  f o r- e -v e r  to complete this story...don’t ask why. Suffice it to say, I just got in my own way.  But, what’s really mind-boggling is that this will be my third published book in less than a year.  Of course, with electronic publishing, I guess that isn’t too hard to believe. Technology has made life so much easier...makes me glad I was born in the middle of the twentieth century. I mean, what would I do without my microwave popcorn?? 
 


Anyway, as I was saying, my new book will be out on Monday, October 15th....the same day my oldest child turns 25!! (Happy Birthday, Adam!) But, what’s different and crazy about this release is....I’m self-publishing it.  Why is that crazy? Because for the longest time, I’ve been against the whole self-publishing thing...mainly because I’m of the old school of thought...if you can’t get a publishing house to consider your work, then it’s not good enough. I even felt the same way about electronic publishers...until I published my novella Her Will His Way.  Of course, even after publishing that I still set my sights on the Big 6 (as they’re known) because I wanted the prestige and respect of the publishing world. But, as much as they gushed over my work, they didn’t believe it was good enough to warrant them printing it out and shipping it to retailers. So, on a whim, I sent my beloved novel, Forget Me Not, to a new online publisher....and, well....I welcome me to the twenty-first century.  I’m very pleased with those results. My novel became one of their highest sellers, especially considering how long it was (83K words as opposed to the 60K preferred by e-readers--according to demographics). So, with those numbers I decided to sell my next book, Dark Obsession, to another online publisher. Those sales didn’t do as well....which is not because the book isn’t good...it’s awesome!...but...well....I won’t go into that...let’s just say, I’m disappointed.  Anyway, despite that, I was still not so sure about doing the whole self-pubbed thing.  I had just finished House of Cards and I knew this novel was going to be my breakout book because it’s that good! I planned to start querying agents and editors, especially after the first chapter took third place in the TARA contest for best romantic suspense.
On the referral of another writer, I submitted it to the senior editor at Harlequin Intrigue. Thankfully, she rejected it. (Talk about a BIG SIGH OF RELIEF!!! I don’t really like their books and never wanted to write for them. Call it a lapse in judgment and desperation that I even submitted.) After that rejection, this same author suggested I self publish. He’d recently published one of his novels and was so very happy with the process he became a poster child for it. Hah  But, still, I wasn’t sure if that was the right move for me because I still had the doubts of self-publishing at the back of my mind.  Then I thought, did I really want to go through the whole submit and wait forever with the big six?  While I was in L.A for the RWA conference this past summer, I got interest from a couple of the editors there (although I doubt they’re sitting at their desk waiting for the email..haha). Then, I spoke to Jayne Ann Krentz (big fan!) during a book-signing and mentioned I was considering self-publishing. She told me it was one of the best moves she made---self-publishing her backlist---then she handed me her card with the name of the company she uses. So....I made up my mind. Self Publishing World....here I come!
Like with any release, I’m both excited and terrified! I know there will be many who love the book but there will also be those who hate it....such is the life of an author. This is my fourth published work so I’m not so neurotic about the critics anymore...to each his own. I will say if you base the book on its cover, you’re in for a thrill!  Special thank you to Robert Gregory Browne for the design!
And, because you’ve made it this far into my blog post, here’s a sneak peek at my book, House of Cards.
CHAPTER ONE 
The needle wavered at sixty-five miles per hour. The engine gunned and the car shuddered seconds before the tires left the pavement. Metal crunched against metal, sparks igniting across the highway. Jesse squeezed her eyes shut and braced for the impact. Her body bucked against the backseat as the car rolled, the seatbelt strap pinning her against the vinyl and cutting into her neck. Glass shattered against her skull as the car tumbled to a stop in a shallow ravine. Jesse struggled with her seatbelt, fighting to unclasp the latch.  The burning odor of gasoline stung her eyes. 
Outside a shadowed figure stepped forward and crouched beside her door.
“You should have left it alone,” the voice said.
Even through her petrified fear she heard the unmistakable scrape of a match. The figure took a step back and tossed the tiny stick into the car. 
 
Her scream woke her. 
Jesse bolted up on the sofa, her arms flailing, fighting the restraints of the chenille blanket tangled around her. The soft glow of light from the laptop on the coffee table caught her attention and it took her a moment to realize it had been a dream. She wasn’t that helpless child anymore. She wasn’t trapped in a burning car with her parents. She was at home, in her apartment where she’d lived for the past five years.
She shoved the blanket off and pressed the heel of her hands to her eyes to push back the burning tears. She was safe. She was fine. She was alive. She tried to repeat the mantra but the images from her nightmare continued to play in her head. 
“Damn it.”
After giving herself a moment to steady her pulse she slapped the computer closed and staggered into the kitchen. She didn’t need to look at the clock above the sink to know what time it was. Three o’clock in the morning. Same freaking time every night for the last two weeks.  With a frustrated sigh she yanked open the refrigerator and grabbed a water bottle.  She took a long drink, the cold liquid soothing the rawness of her throat.  Outside lightening flashed, followed by the sonic boom of thunder. She jolted, her heart slamming against her breastbone like a sledgehammer. The dream flashed in her mind. The car tumbling across the highway. Her mother’s terrified screams. The explosion that turned her parent’s flesh to bones and ash. 
Jesse closed her eyes and held her breath, counting against the thump of her pulse. After the accident the doctors had told her she’d lead a normal life; that her injuries, though life threatening at one time, wouldn’t keep her from doing whatever she wanted to do. She slowly exhaled and slid a look at the orange pill bottle on the window sill. They just didn’t say anything about her mind debilitating her.
She took another pull from the bottle, her gaze shifting to the blinking light on the old answering machine buried under a newspaper. The calls she’d ignored earlier. She mentally ran through a list of possible callers–her boss at the paper, a student from her computer research class wanting her notes again, or her friend Amy dying to tell her about her latest date. Most days she enjoyed living vicariously through Amy’s erotic encounters, since Jesse hadn’t had a serious relationship in over three years but, thanks to her nightmare, she was no longer in the mood.
“Whoever you are can wait.” She finished the bottle and tossed it in the recycle bin before leaving the room.
After a hot shower, where she stood for half an hour to let the beating spray massage the tension in her muscles, she poured herself a glass of wine then pressed play on the answering machine. A soft rustling sounded before a voice came on the line.
 “Jesse. Are you there? Pick up. I know you must hate me and I’m sorry. You were right. I should have believed you. I’m so sorry I didn’t listen. Please, pick up the phone. Mierda. Where are you?  I need you. Ay, dios mio, I don't know what to do. Please Jesse, you have to help me. I think he’s going to kill me.”
Look for the book at Amazon, Barnes & Noble, Kobo, or ITunes beginning October 15th!
 
I also wanted to mention, from now until the end of October, I will donate $1.00 of every book sold to the Texas EquuSearch Organization. Just click on the link to learn more about them.

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